Things have not been easy around here lately. I have been feeling depressed and burned out on life. Work has been wracked by business emergencies, money is tight, and my divorce feels like it will never end. Yet today, I found hope in my circumstances.
Today a new friend from church lent me a book called “One Thousand Gifts.” At page 13, I had an important realization about the circumstances and reasons for the bad things I’ve endured over the years.
Here is what I shared with my friend about my experience today:
The words “by Grace” felt like they blew into my face when I was reading about the father asking why God allowed his daughter to be killed. Perhaps He saved her from a fate worse than physical death. I feel with my whole heart that God caused my anti-husband to flee from me in order to deliver me from spiritual torture. By God’s Grace alone I was saved from a relationship that was killing my personhood…I was giving everything to stay and make it work although my anti-husband had killed my dearest dreams and sense of worth. There was a lot of emotional violence, and it was like a slow quiet poison. I have suffered some why moments lately, seeing only the pain and feeling hopeless.
The words “by Grace” have changed something in my thinking. By Grace I’m suffering what needs to be suffered, by Grace I’ve survived, by Grace I’ve been saved and awakened, and by Grace I will go on.
By God’s amazing Grace, I hope that you can experience this moment of epiphany for yourselves, too.