Well, I found myself much busier than expected after starting my part-time job. Apparently, surviving PTSD is a job in and of itself. I am finally back into counseling and that helps.
My new therapist at the DV shelter says that I need to limit my reading of abuse-related articles for now. I agree. I feel that I am subconsciously still trying to solve the puzzle of my sham marriage and very raw abandonment—ain’t gonna happen.
You see, I realize (though I am still working on believing 100%) that Mr. Hyde will never provide anything I need to have closure. In fact, if he knew I sought closure, I am pretty sure he would do everything in his power to prevent me from having it. How small and petty can a grown man be?
Anyways, I have neglected this blog, but I wanted you to know I haven’t abandoned it!
Hoping you all are finding some peace on your paths. 🙂